To a friend,

IMG_4157This has been my experience of Christianity:

At times, I live for a season without clinging to the cross of Christ. I find during those seasons that my love is filled with hypocrisy and my goodness is too flimsy to withstand examination. Fear of discovery can make me defensive. It often takes a painful solace, an absence of the distractions that satiate a selfish heart or the desire to love someone, impossibly, beyond the end of myself that puts me down into a depth from which I am helpless to emerge. It is then– a painful confession, it is only then– that I look upward. It is then that the cross– rugged, stained, demanding of more than I want to give– looks appealing. I cling. And I am consistently surprised to experience joy.

I never see it coming. Joy.

* A note: Friend, grace and faith, as words, are absent from the paragraph above, so don’t mistake this brief account for theology. Grace and faith are the air I breathed as I typed, by grace, through faith. They are the space between every line above and the pause after every period and comma. But you already knew that.


Year-End Review

To finish out 2013, here’s a list of some favorite posts from the past year:

Happy New Year, Everyone!

On the Lighter Side of ThingsTypewriter

Home Run, Man

the “most viewed post” this year

I lost Grandma

Trick or Treat?
runner-up for “most viewed post” this year

But the title’s awful…ly catchy
most “liked” post this year

jmm relevant

On the Serious Side of Things

“Death be not proud”

“The world is not as it should be…”

“On Friday a thief”

What to say

Suggestions of the Real Thing

Some of my Favorite Quotes on the Blog

starburst galaxy

Rhythm, Harmony, and Math

Mo’ honey, mo’ problems

A sense of our own weakness

What to read

A mistake, though an understandable one

And (not from 2013) here’s the first post published on this blog:

Eliott’s Inkling this explains where the name “Not a Tidy World” comes from

Ideas for 2014?
Did I leave out one of your favorites form 2013?
Tell me about it in the comments!